How I Became Interested In Doing YouTube

I wanted to get involved in YouTube ever since the early days. I wanted to start an audio podcast centered around dating and relationship topics. But, I just didn't have the confidence in my voice or communication skills. I stuttered. I often rambled or got off topic. Sometimes, I would even lose my train of thought and forget the point I was trying to make. 😕

Because I was so self-conscious about these three things, I couldn't my YouTube venture off the the ground. 

After about four or five years (a LOT of time wasted), of striving to improve my communication and working on other business projects, and research, and partying, and procrastinating, I decided to give YouTube another try.

But, I was out of touch, and fed into the false idea that YouTube was ONLY for viral videos, that I gave up on my "podcast idea" and started trying to find things that were funny or shocking. 

Even at work, I kept my phone ready for action... but, my life was dull as hell, and nothing interesting ever happened, so trying to get my foot in the door that way was a bust and a wast of time also.

Back in those days it was hard to find "regular people" on YouTube sharing their opinions and personal experiences. The regular folks were either ranting, beefing, or illegally posting copyrighted video clips on Youtube. And, then there were the "beheadings" which I didn't care to see. 

Most of the people giving opinions or advice were experts and "gurus", and I didn't feel like I was on that level, so I let more time pass by while I worked on my communication skills a little more.

While I was doing that, I realized I needed a team, and tried to "recruit" people to do YouTube. I would buy a high-powered computer, cameras, and anything else we needed, but...

No one else had the vision. But, at the same time, I realized that people have to chase their own dreams. I can't expect them to follow mine.

I was disappointed, but I had to accept it. And, I watched Jenna Marbles, and Kingsley, and Jessie and Jeana just pass me right on by.

With my poor speaking skills, I decided to play it safe and blog. This was crazy because all the wannabee bloggers and writers came out of the woodwork! This was something people wanted to be a part of - or, so I thought.

They were some of laziest bunch of scalawags you'd ever want to see. 😄 I started a blog and wrote three posts at least five pages long for each one. I was even giving them access to the blog so they could debate my opinions and beliefs on those topics, but nobody replied. 

Instead, one of my comrades was able to get on a pilot for a radio program. She had to make several shows and post them to... YouTube... and, then the station would decide to pick her up from there. 

One of my homies decided to pursue a rap career. He was decent. He had talent and following. He also had an even better camera than I did. But, he only wanted to use it for making music videos.

I was down to three people: two of my co-workers and homies. But, they were part of that group that wanted to write fantasy and science fiction novels, so they basically laughed me out of the breakroom and out of the building when I asked them to join me on this YouTube adventure.

Finally, it was my girlfriend at the time. I began buying this house I'm living in now, and she moved in with me. So, this was convenient. We would have no problems doing YouTube. But she preferred that we create a podcast - which was cool - until our relationship turned rocky. We weren't on good terms and that plan fell through as well.

Again, time has passed me by. And, YouTube has become saturated with all kinds of regular folks doing any-and-everything on YouTube and making a living. 

The YouTube Couples who vlog and prank each other has re-inspired me. The YouTube drama channels have re-inspired me. Honestly, I would love to have a YouTube couple's channel, but I'm not going to let the fact that I'm single hold me back this time. This time I'm going for the gold regardless. I've already started.

Now, I realize, I don't have to sound like a public speaker. I don't have to be an expert. I don't have to do epic shit to get views. And, I don't have to have a team or fancy high-powered equipment to do YouTube.

Finally, I'm waking up to the fact that I have to make moves on my own regardless of my flaws or lack of knowledge or lack of equipment. Interruptions are another problem, but I'll work through it.

So, the point is this: If you want to do anything in life, You have to be the first to make moves. You can't wait on help or a sidekick, or a ride-or-die chick, or people to make up a team. You just have to GO. You just have to do it and forget about waiting on other people to join you on your journey.

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